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11 Jun

As I see this city, I’m feeling a bit down from the inside. Flashback of memories keeps gushing through my mind that I ended up crying in the corner of my bed. Why. I don’t know. Few more days and I’m still not packing. Maybe I’m still attached to everything. This idea of leaving is not sinking in me. I am not regretting to leave because I am following my intuition. But I’m just so sad and emotional. I appreciate every little thing. I realized many things in my life. I am still lacking in many areas. Got so many flaws and lies in life. And it’s okay, self. I will get and feel better in time. Please don’t pressure yourself, instead be gentle.

Thank You God for helping me grow and move forward. I cannot do this alone. 

Love,

Nj

Nj

619

8 Jun

I cannot please her everyday. 

As much as possible I have grown the value of patience and understanding while growing up. Maturity. Hmm. It’s always nice to sleep soundly with peace. Peace of mind knowing that you don’t have any hard feelings to everyone. I know some people can’t tolerate why I am always late. If she has major issue on why I move so slow, just tell me and do not snob me and won’t talk to me. It’s awkward a bit. I feel your aura, girl. So, I will back off for now until you recover on your drama. I want to see you smile on me, not your busangot face. I will be staying here in KSA maybe less than a month from now, I wanna make good memories with all of you. I hope you move on na, girl. I have no problem if you confront me, I will accept it whole-heartedly. Actually, I don’t want to be affected with this issue, but I don’t want to let this issue affect our friendship. Even I do good things for you when you’re sick, but not done for me in return when I got sick, I understand. Not all my good deeds can get sukli but I will do it anyway. Being Kind feels good even if you’re not expecting something in return, right? Just be kind anyway. 
I don’t know if you’re down into something before, and me being late just beated your yesterday’s mood.. but I will understand you. I hope you understand me too. I’m sorry for being late yesterday. My bad. My mistake. I apologize many times. Smile na, Been waiting for you to come out on your room since morning! I want peace not war. Let’s be okay real soon, Ate Angel. ~ 

Love,

Nj

618

7 Jun

Welcome back to toxicity!!! After my four days off, hello toxic shift! Full house. Wow. Three trans-out. Patient A, have severe bleeding; Patient B, have fetal distress on CTG; Patient C was previous 2 CS, breech, and in labor! Got admissions and discharges too. What an epic comeback, self. Thank God I’m with Sister Neena and Sheeba! ~ grateful indeed!

Few more days left and I will not be able to see these doctors that made me curse my job. I do really hope that these doctors would be more nice, respectful and caring for nurses too. I just wish them good karma in the future. 

Inspite of my toxic shift that I got home at 1730H, all my sisters here in our flat celebrated Ate Analyn’s birthday at La Paz. Thanks for inviting me. Hihi. Happy Birthday! ~ my gift will be to follow na muna. Thanks for being so kind to me, Ate!

What a day. 

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

617

6 Jun

Many people said that woman were not allowed to walk alone in KSA. At first, I was so afraid but now, I have gained courage. Though I really don’t want to walk from our accomodation to hospital and vice versa, we don’t have a choice. I can’t count anymore on how many times I have walked alone. Sad to say, I have entered an institution where they are not prioritizing our safety and welfare. Our new accomodation is still not finished with construction. It’s inside the vicinity of the hospital. I will not be able to live there anymore once it will be finished. I’m just waiting for my papers to finish. My exit is still on process. I will wait, then from now I must start to pack-up. My ordered balikbayan box has arrived today. It’s not easy to leave but I shall follow my intuition. 

Goodnight!

Aways be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

614

3 Jun

I am grateful I am healthy and I am alive . All for God’s glory! πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

Today’s simple joys: 

  • Survived my six days! Three evening and three nights of duty. Two days as charge nurse. Two days with full census, thus two staff. Me and Sister Najla. Me and Sister Manal. 
  • Walking safe and at peace going home alone! 
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  • Able to catch some episodes of Suspicious Partner. Ji wook is incredibly charming, I am falling. 
  • Ate spaghetti 🍝
  • Found out that this will be my last duty roster!!! πŸ™ƒ
  • Had a catch up with BS, Janet! 😘 missing this woman so much. Always ready to pick-up my calls whenever and wherever ☺️

Goodnight, friends!
Always be grateful 🌷

Love, 

Nj

613

2 Jun

(Please excuse my haggard yet grateful twenty-three year old selfie at the Ateneo Professional School sign after I passed my Prometric Exam on June 2, 2016!) 

Yes, It’s been a year since I passed the Saudi Council exam. And it’s been four years since I took the Philippine Nursing Licensure Exam in 2013. Time flies so quickkkk as pakkk. What I have gained so far? Hmm. Fats, Experience, and Friends. Sad to say, I will not be able to get a copy of my license and certificates here in KSA because it’s toooo freaking costly!!! I finished my expensive dataflow to be able to get those stuff, but homaygallyyy so mahal!!! I will not renew my contract and I have no plan to go back here in KSA, if I paid for those certificates as if I took the exam with the same price as getting certificates, maybe it’s just a waste of money. Letting go from all my future worries, for now. And letting God to direct my steps for the next coming years! 

June 2 seems to be a memorable date on my career. Also, the universe made me happy again with this date, because of BTS’ JK and Jimin dropped their Cover of We don’t talk anymore!!! 

Listen and stream, loves:

We Don’t Talk Anymore 🎢
Thank you for this beautiful cover dedicated esp. for ARMY family. Repeatedly listened to this song for more than 10x!!! Saranghaeyo, jungkookiee~ jimin-shi~ 😍

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

610

30 May

(Credits to Artidote)


Self, slow down and take it easy.  Yes you have your own race but take a deep breath and follow your intuition. Remember that going back home is not a sign of giving up easily. You’re not a quitter. You finished your contract. But if staying longer does not make you really fulfilled and happy, then just leave. Let Go and Let God. I know you will go places someday. Hold on to your hopes and dreams. 

Love,

Nj

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