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Good morning, it’s Friday the 13th 🌸
Today, I’m an hour early for our Final Coaching class at Niner P. Campa branch. I’m still sleepy, yet I’m thankful again for my dad who’s been my best supporter ever. I’m not late (yey!) and I have a smooth ride compare to my experience yesterday. Hopefully, I can learn a lot from this class that after this, I will be more hyped to practice and study smarter. 

I’m back to socializing with my girl tribe on messenger. I didn’t went online for a day hehe just because blah, but I’m happy to be reconnected with them. It’s my day 5 of no social media and korean related thing.. and I don’t know with myself that I am missing the latter more! 😋

Have a nice day, friends!

Take care! 

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

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My realization today: My dad is missing his morning daily routine (preparing delicious breakfast and packed meal everytime we have to go to school/work). I’ve told him yesterday that I need to wake up early because I don’t want to be late again on my Reading SE class at Niner Guadalupe, and he did woke up around 5am today. I asked him why he’s up that time, he replied, he refused to sleep again. Hence, He don’t want to fail me. We ate well, I made him coffee, I brought the snack he prepared, and despite the hell of a ride MRT experience, I’m not late. Yey! Thank you, pa! ☺️
I know he’s battling every day with self-pity because of being jobless for almost three decades now. He’s not a failure but he always think that way. In fact, he’s a responsible and caring dad ever! That’s why, it’s sometimes heartbreaking to see him sad and alone at home. So everyday, I’m telling him how grateful I am for all his efforts, big or small. He really means a lot. 
Love you dad! ❤️
It’s not father’s day (haha) but I’ve just got an impulse today to remind you (yes, you) to appreciate your dad. He’s one-of-a-kind, and he values you 100%. 
Always be grateful 🌷
Love,

Nj

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Good morning, friends! 🙂

I just had a weird and crazy dream, and got an impulse to blog right away. It’s been so long that I’ve shared my dreams here, right? So, bear with me again today.

Disclaimer: it’s not a love story. Possibly, I believe that it’s my future self in Australia????!!! *gasping*

Here it is..

It’s late afternoon and I came from (maybe) Philippines, I was wearing my dark blue hoodie, denim pants and trainers, and I was inside a man’s house. He’s tall and handsome, I can resemble him to one of the lead character from the international movie, In your eyes. We’re sitting on a couch in his living room. The view outside was majestic because we’re like in a beach front. So, I offered some snack with him and to an old woman beside him. We all chatted, and then the woman went out, so I also told him that I would go out and look around the area. It’s sunny, but I loved the cool breeze from the shore.

Afterwards, when I came back to his crib, I saw him sleeping on the couch. I fixed my things queitly, but then he suddenly woke up. I sheepishly asked if I could share from his personal hotspot because I don’t have a cellular data. He reached his Mac laptop and tried to connect, but his out of balance too. However, after a few minutes, he was able to connect and share his wifi with me. I don’t know why my sister abroad called him, and then we had a video conference using his laptop. Perhaps, my sister knew this guy I am with ??

The end.

Life is really uncertain, I know. But, I don’t know what to really feel about this.

Anyway, thanks for reading! 🙂

Love,

Nj

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Today’s simple joys:

  • Pajama all-day! I loved this chill weather! 🙂
  • Pork Stew with corn
  • Chocolates
  • Started reading To Kill a Mockingbird
  • Did practice reading tests set 1 and 2 and got 6.o-6.5
  • Watched Mean Girls 2
  • Survived my day 1 challenge to myself (no social media and korean related activities huhu)
  • Video call with my friend, cheryl

 

Thank you, Lord!!! I hope I am improving bit by bit on my journey to get a 7 in IELTS exam.

 

Goodnight, universe!

Always be grateful ❤

 

 

Love,

Nj

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Life’s full of temptation. Anybody can easily fall into a certain addiction because of this. However, without realizing and reflecting enough, we fall into sin not because of temptation, but with weak spiritual system.

We, humans, go through different kinds of pain and sadness. Heartbreaking. Depressing. It’s unbearable at times, that’s why we, having these feels, tend to find instant solution to ease our sufferings. We tend to form an escape and rely to wrong choices that will only eventually make us more broken on the inside.

I am not in the position to lecture what to do with these, but let’s just be kind to ourselves. Love ourselves to stand firm with God.

I cry a lot because I sometimes feel hopeless as regard with my family issues but I still love them. During the session at the Feast, I can’t help myself not comparing the situation of my dad and my brother. Self-rejection to self-doubt to self-pity to self-destruction. For now, sorry I will not elaborate anymore.. I still can’t handle it. I hope it’s not too late for my family to be restored emotionally and spiritually. HUHU. I don’t know how to properly approach them with this matter but I pray that God will strengthen my faith that my family is worth-saving for!!!!! ~ My prayer since I’m in high school. Sigh.

To sum up my night, I’m still pretending to be okay at home, even if my dad and brother were not really fine at all. While I was having my Sunday Service at Bluewave, I have no idea that they fought because of our car. ugh. Tomorrow is another day. I hope my brother is mature enough to say sorry and respect my dad. Please.

 

Thank you God,  I know you’re always there for me and my household. I lift up all my pain in my heart. Thank you for this gift of life this week, though I sometimes feel like a failure, you’re there to comfort me and help me stand up all the time. I love you ❤

 

No k-drama, k-pop music and social media until Saturday, self. I must start to focus on my review for IELTS. Hehe. push! See you on Sunday, BTS fam! Eat well and enjoy! Congrats on winning wooh DNA8thwin ~ daebak ~

 

Goodnight, universe!

 

Always be grateful ❤

 

 

Love,

Nj

 

 

 

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Another week has passed. I’m asking myself if I’m really improving or not. At the end of this month, I do really hope for a factual progress, self. Less k-drama, instead more reading, writing, and coaching. Dedication and practice. I still don’t want to pressure you. Inhale, exhale 🙂 You can do this.

 

Me to IELTS ~

Me to my everyday challenges ~

Me to progress ~

 

Thank you Lord! ❤

Today’s simple joys:

  • chocolates.
  • my left thumb, “trigger-finger” is improving!!!
  • my laptop is finally working fine again tonight.
  • read and practice with my orange book.
  • mood-booster music
  • spaghetti at the moment .. so brb guys haha :))

 

Goodnight, friends! I hope you all had spent your week good 🙂

Always be grateful ❤

 

Love,

Nj

 

 

751 – “Why being lonely isn’t so bad”

“Liking your own company doesn’t have to mean that you’re all alone in the world. Rather, you have yourself. And sometimes that’s enough. 🌷

Solitude 🙌🏻
I completely agree on what I have read tonight. It’s the way you percieve things whether you are alone or not, you are solely responsible for your emotions all throughout the day. You, yourself is completely made. You are enough.

Read this full article (published last year – but thankfully, CNN life retweeted this on Twitter)  **I guessed, I’ve reblogged this here before**

CLICK LINK: why being lonely isn’t so bad

I loved how the writer/blogger greatly pointed out realistic reasons and experiences! Thank you for sharing this!!! I really had spent my alone time in my room after reading this. I felt good. 💖

After my reading subject enhancement class, I stayed here for almost five hours straight. I had my time of my life ~ watching k-drama and real people in and out the coffee shop, enjoying my hot chocolate and snack, reading my reviewer, and gaining a friend, Suzette. 

I went home, decided to jog at MSC, waited 30 minutes on the line. I started to jog around 1840H, had almost 7 laps, got home 1915H 🙂

Thank you Lord for today!!!

Goodnight 😘

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj