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Life’s full of temptation. Anybody can easily fall into a certain addiction because of this. However, without realizing and reflecting enough, we fall into sin not because of temptation, but with weak spiritual system.

We, humans, go through different kinds of pain and sadness. Heartbreaking. Depressing. It’s unbearable at times, that’s why we, having these feels, tend to find instant solution to ease our sufferings.Β We tend to form an escape and rely to wrong choices that will only eventually make us more broken on the inside.

I am not in the position to lecture what to do with these, but let’s just be kind to ourselves. Love ourselves to stand firm with God.

I cry a lot because I sometimes feel hopeless as regard with my family issues but I still love them. During the session at the Feast, I can’t help myself not comparing the situation of my dad and my brother. Self-rejection to self-doubt to self-pity to self-destruction. For now, sorry I will not elaborate anymore.. I still can’t handle it. I hope it’s not too late for my family to be restored emotionally and spiritually. HUHU. I don’t know how to properly approach them with this matter but I pray that God will strengthen my faith that my family is worth-saving for!!!!! ~ My prayer since I’m in high school. Sigh.

To sum up my night, I’m still pretending to be okay at home, even if my dad and brother were not really fine at all. While I was having my Sunday Service at Bluewave, I have no idea that they fought because of our car. ugh. Tomorrow is another day. I hope my brother is mature enough to say sorry and respect my dad. Please.

 

Thank you God,Β  I know you’re always there for me and my household. I lift up all my pain in my heart. Thank you for this gift of life this week, though I sometimes feel like a failure, you’re there to comfort me and help me stand up all the time. I love you ❀

 

No k-drama, k-pop music and social media until Saturday, self. I must start to focus on my review for IELTS. Hehe. push! See you on Sunday, BTS fam! Eat well and enjoy! Congrats on winning wooh DNA8thwin ~ daebak ~

 

Goodnight, universe!

 

Always be grateful ❀

 

 

Love,

Nj

 

 

 

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751 – β€œWhy being lonely isn’t so bad”

β€œLiking your own company doesn’t have to mean that you’re all alone in the world. Rather, you have yourself. And sometimes that’s enough. 🌷

Solitude πŸ™ŒπŸ»
I completely agree on what I have read tonight. It’s the way you percieve things whether you are alone or not, you are solely responsible for your emotions all throughout the day. You, yourself is completely made. You are enough.

Read this full article (published last year – but thankfully, CNN life retweeted this on Twitter)  **I guessed, I’ve reblogged this here before**

CLICK LINK: why being lonely isn’t so bad

I loved how the writer/blogger greatly pointed out realistic reasons and experiences! Thank you for sharing this!!! I really had spent my alone time in my room after reading this. I felt good. πŸ’–

After my reading subject enhancement class, I stayed here for almost five hours straight. I had my time of my life ~ watching k-drama and real people in and out the coffee shop, enjoying my hot chocolate and snack, reading my reviewer, and gaining a friend, Suzette. 

I went home, decided to jog at MSC, waited 30 minutes on the line. I started to jog around 1840H, had almost 7 laps, got home 1915H πŸ™‚

Thank you Lord for today!!!

Goodnight 😘

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

750

Hi! Happy World Teacher’s Day! thank you, teachers and coaches that helped us unconditionally, for us to learn and to strive for progress in life. 
Hmm.. What have I done today? 

(My simple entry for InktoberPH)
I’ve been sitting all day. I’m guilty again of watching k-drama in between of my study breaks, plus this doodle above. Hihi. I watched Age of Youth S2 Ep8-11 πŸ™ˆ *i love this fam*. So, as I drew this doodle, I’m imagining myself that someday I will have an overlooking view of the skies, sunrise/sunset, and nature either mountains or sea in my room. Wow, I’m looking forward to it, self! 

Now, continue studying and reading tips from IELTS Liz website (very helpful site, thank you Ms. Liz)

Go, go, go! ❀
~ It’s so nice to make someone smile with a simple and sincere birthday greeting. Thank you and Happy Birthday again, Karen! ☺️ hihi. ~ simple joys ~ 
*Even if I am really behind with BTS updates, I kept on streaming Love Yourself Album on Spotify, and voting for you guys!!!! Congrats, fam! I love you! Please eat well hihi ~

Thank you for today, Lord!!! ❀
Goodnight, universe!

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

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August was my bipolar month. I’ve gone my ups and downs of emotions!!!!!! 

I got depressed for a short time. Due to my poor decision skills and I became envious, I can’t help to compare myself to my friends online. I tried to ignore some posts I saw on social media. My notifications from IG and FB were still turned off. I don’t want to be distracted as much as possible. It’s bad to compare yourself, it’s easy to say that, but sometimes, it’s just hard. I want to travel so terribly bad, that I want to go to South Korea, relax in Coron, and chill at Sagada. I haven’t visited any of them. Yep, still at home with my untouched savings. My pain in my left wrist is also adding up to why I’ve been feeling so sad too. In general, I’m frustrated, confused, and uninspired in my life.

But, What’s my turning point? 

I helped myself, to get up and be inspired again, because if not, I will be in nowhere if I continue this gruel phase. In addition, through Purposeful Creative site, that I really love and enjoy listening as of the moment, it helped me to focus, to take one big thing at a time in my life. I have tons of ideas in my head. However, I need to believe that if my idea is for me, it will be. It’s like if what’s meant to be, it will be. I shall be limiting my time on my blog and journal (sorry for now), and I stopped recording on Youtube with my speaking progress for now, because I’m so guilty of not practising my English.
 I added listening to Miss Arianne’s podcast in my daily routine, and I have done my review too. From all her pure posts of inspirations, here I am to pursue my studies to improve my English. I’m glad to attend at other Niner’s branch to learn more and find myself. I still didn’t decide whether I will take UKVI or regular IELTS.. still no final country of destination too. Hmmmm. I’m in no rush. 

Focus. 

Discern. 

Thank you Lord for uplifting me again. August will end, but another month is about to begin. Hello, September! *positivity and braver, self!*
Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

700th ✨

 Cheers, 700th post! πŸ‘πŸΌ

Today’s simple joys:

  • I did not choose to stay at home despite this rainy and cold weather. I have done my 5th boxing session. 
  • I finally bought an Army bomb version 2 lightstick online.
  • I am healthy and alive! 
  • Thank you Dad for my transpo, my buddy, and the salad.. hihi 
  • I love my family and friends.
  • I love BTS members a lot! Most esp. my baby nochu 😘

Thank you Lord! ❀

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

676 – Teacher πŸ“š

Yes, you are poor but you can dream and work hard. You can get out from that cell that stopping you not to grow or change your life. You have to make a stand. It’s a hard battle and rough path. You gotta be strong. Have faith that your circle will support you in time, the least you expect it. You gotta experience being down before you taste real success. All of these down moments, these will all mold you up. Only way up, and forward to success. No matter how educated or successful you’ll be. Don’t forget your roots. Don’t ever belittle anybody. Nobody has the right to belittle any single human being in this universe. Stay humble. Live gratefully and with grace. Workhard to grow and to never stop learning in this life. I support Education, as equal as I give importance to our Health. 

Learning. Reflections.

I’ve watched today’s episode of #MMKPrideandJoy and Brigada. Both of them shared how essential Education is. I’m very grateful in my life that I’ve gave importance on my studies before anything else, like being in a relationship – for example. My parents really worked hard so I must pay what they deserve. It’s okay to get tired and tired while studying, but you must never ever give up your Education, dears. Education is a gold investment that your parents sacrificed everything for you to get one! 
I got really teary-eyed, when the Father doesn’t support his Son’s dream to be a teacher at first, but then, the father knew the story of his son’s hardwork and how he was belittle by his Auntie (Father side). His father gone mad with his sister. His Father just became proud of his son. Oh, men were not so vocal, but they’re really love and protecting each other. Given fact that your family will always be your source of strength. Strength, to push you towards your goal coz its really fulfilling that your family support you. Huhu. Teacher Roy, Thank you for sharing your inspiring story! #MMKPrideandJoy πŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ‘ŒπŸΌ

From Brigada, I was awakened again to my dream to teach kids passionately 😒 Miss Celine was a teacher in Laguna. She was a bookworm ever since. She has a daughter who got influenced too from Technologies but now grown to love books after Celine read a book everyday for her daughter. Celine got motivated to teach other kids during summer season, and since school has started, she has session every Saturday for them. “Kwentuhan sa Wawa.” As I remember the name of her project. She can alot her time, effort, and money just to teach and serve kids. She wanted all kids to learn how to read thru her simple movement. *very inspiring, Teacher Celine!! πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌ

Two of the episodes I watched today were Teachers. Real talk: I’ve wanted to become a teacher too. Passionate teacher such as Miss Sabrina OngKiko. 

To love and to serve the public. Every student deserves a good teacher. 

β€” Sabrina Ongkiko 

I’m very grateful today: I chose to alot time for my family and friends! Catch-up, done!

Thank you Lord!!! πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–

Goodnight! 

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

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Life is short. Take chances. Enjoy life. Do what you love. Serve and spread love everyday. Coz we really didn’t know when is our time to go up, yes only way up!!!!! Huhuhuhu 😩 It’s so easy to say these things but it’s difficult to maintain to be happy all the time and do these stuff. Huhu what I’m pointing out there. I’m just so shocked to see “condolence posts” early in the morning. Found out that one of my batchmate/schoolmate in Highschool died due to cardiac arrest. Young, active, and sporty woman that everyone knew. Rest in peace, A.. πŸ•Š
My bff, Iya, we met for a quick catch-up and went to A’s wake to pray. It’s sad that friends meet in a funeral after long months of not seeing each other.. 😞

Before heading home, we had our pagpag time, we ate and had our catch up at Calle Lila. I always admire this woman for being enthusiastic and lovable every time. She’s now the breadwinner of the family at her young age. She juggled everything with grace. I always love how she appreciates simple things too. I hope she allot time also for herself, she must engage too, to skin care and exercise. This woman is selfless, simple, and very warm inside. Thank you for your time spent with me even though you’re so busy(I understand haha), bff iya ❀️ I love you 😘

Always be grateful, simple for being alive and breathing!!!!! Thank you Lord!!! 🌷

Love,

Nj