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642

28 Jun

I am grateful I am alive and I am healthy. All for God’s glory! πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

Today’s simple joys:

  • Watched Fight my Way’s Episode 11 & 12!! I got butterflies and lot of giggles from Dong Man and Ae Ra! But I got affected too much on Sul Hee’s emotional heartbreaking scene and to Father-Son moments of Dong Man!! Huhu! (I really wanted that someday my dad and my brother will have that deep conversation too someday, that my brother will respect my dad’s advices and lessons.. haaay) I really loved what his father adviced to Dong Man, “You can’t save your youth anyway. So, fight, take challenges even if you got beaten, live the life you wanted, okay?” I cried!!! Seeing your parents cry. 😭
  • I also loved this Dong Man!!! – “If growing up means your dreams fade, I’ll give up on growing up. There’s no need to pretend to be grown up for others” – real talk huhu
  • Me and my dad were in good terms already like nothing happened yesterday.. (story: I got irritated with him because he kept on calling and saying rants ughhh *my bad, sorry dad.. I just can’t tolerate many negativity yesterday!!!)
  • Everyday catch-up with my sister, *much longer time for VC today.
  • Went out at Aseer Mall with Ate Analyn, Grace, Angelica, and Cheryl. 
  • I bought one knitted cardigan, two branded watches for sale and two perfumes. Got me 267SR!!
  • Ate dinner with my flatmates, plus we shared table with Ate Leslie and Ate Aileen. Burgerl meal x chicken for dinner.
  • Watched ROS Song Triplets Ep6&7!!!! Cuties forever. The mud. The meals. The bday gift. The torch. πŸ’–
  • First time to try Fresh Burger’s Burger meal for 20SR, as my midnight snack. It was good esp. the bun and the fries’ sauce. #thisiswhyImFat

Thank you Lord for today!!!!

Goodnight!

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj 

640 – my k.s.a diaries

26 Jun

In the mood today to share my story, just wanted to open up, might as well be helpful on freeing heavy weight in my heart and motivate at least one human being, reading this. As of the moment, I’m typing in note app on my phone, lying on our shared king-sized bed, covered up again with my thick blanket because it’s cold in our room and I don’t want to be seen by my roommate and I don’t want to be distracted. Just me, and my thoughts. My real story.
Reasons why I’ve decided to work in KSA:

  • I’m tired of working hard with a small salary in a stressful environment. I wanted to have growth in my nursing career. I wanted to challenge myself even if I only have my two years clinical experience and months of volunteering. I took risk and step out of my comfort zone. 
  • I wanted to follow my sister in KSA. I don’t know if she knew that even if I have my best friends, I’m always attached with my sister. As much as possible, I never wanted to be separated with her. But she’s always the mature, strong but soft-hearted, and independent woman that I’ve known. She always wanted to leave out in our house because of her work distance from our house. That’s an excuse also for my sister to enjoy her youth, the fact of being away from the sight of our strict dad, so I understand her. But you know, I’m always sad whenever she’s leaving.. she’s like my second mom, most esp. when our mom is not always around. 
  • Of course.. to earn more money. I didn’t came to a poor family, only in middle-class as they called it. My mom is the bread winner, she’s working as nurse at Kuwait ever since she was in her twenty something until now; while my dad is just at home for the longest time I’ve known since we’re a baby with no interest to work again ever, his main role at home is to take care os us, me and my siblings. I’m a frugal type of person, but if I’m with my favorite human, I can spend like a princess. I’m not a fan of credit card and debts. I value money that’s why I saved a lot, at times.. Among my siblings, I have a lot of savings compare to them when we were studying.. my siblings always spend a lot on stuff that’s not important using our mom’s hard-earned money. I study hard to make my parents proud at me esp. my mom who’s very hardworking. We’re not poor as I told you, but I even applied for grant-in scholarship when I was in college. Money is the devil to most families, also to us. Money is always an issue in our household. I always cry like a baby. I hate it. I hate myself for the fact that because of money, responsibilities at home, the sight of my dad and brother fighting and disrespecting each other, and my dad who’s having self-pity almost every day, I ran out, I escape, and pushed myself to work here alone, all by myself through application, registration, flying here, going to my assigned hospital and room, until I resigned, I will still go home alone. But I appreciated now the art of being alone. There’s a good thing I learned and discovered about myself while being alone. 

My silent struggles in KSA:

  • A lot!!!! Like language barrier #1, being and living independently, wearing a tarha/hijab, can’t access my Spotify, eating my fave foods, controlling my wanderlust peg to travel, adapting alone for three months, adapting with my flatmates, sharing stuff with my flatmates, walking or doing errand outside alone day/night, not so good accommodation – food allowance/mess money/budget and transportation, unfair treatment of doctors to nurses, toxic duties, mental health, physical health, spiritual practice, social skills, creepy Saudi men, even teenagers!!! And homesickness maybe 10%.. in addition, it’s also a struggle to be a fangirl here, maybe 30%!!! And manyyyy more to mention.. Everyday I struggle but I will not tackle in every detail.. maybe someday if I can able to share it without any hesitation or doubt.. coz we all do struggle, it’s part of life and it’s part of our growth. No pain, no gain.

Reasons why I will not renew my contract and decided to quit my secured job:

  • I’m not genuinely happy.
  • I do not deserve this.
  • Safety is a must priority, *females!!
  • I am more than deserving for better growth and opportunities out there.
  • I decided to enjoy my youth by giving myself an early birthday gift, to choose joy and follow my dreams. I’m still confused and frustrated right now, but I hope I can figure it out and be fully ready on what I really want to do for the next years to come. 
  • I am not a slave for money and for the fact that they refused to give my employment certificate if I didn’t serve here for three years minimum. WTH. Imagine working in a month with only six days off, I heard some MOH with only four days off in a month, as in whaaaat!!!!!?? OMG. Luckily, I have a privilege for extra offs from my kind head nurse. That extra off was the accumulated extra hours of work. For example, in a week you have a total of eight hours overtime, so it will be one day extra off. Coz overtime pay here is zero SR. Charity for some areas. 
  • I’m not quitting because I can’t do this job anymore being a premature charge nurse and because of toxicity or what, coz we all know it’s part of the course.. *sometimes I can just sit on my duty doing nothing, and watching k-dramas, that’s our benign days goes. I just don’t want to be ignorant anymore of the language barrier among my patients and health team. I learned only basic Arabic, yes I survived but I still can’t properly teach proper education on my patients for example.

Of course there’s something I loved here in KSA, Southern region to be specific:

  • I really love the nice and cool weather here. I think I am born during cold season that’s why I was able to adapt really well. I didn’t got sick like common colds and cough, tonsillitis, diarrhea-like, fever and the ill-symptoms when you’re stressed. NEVER. Thank you God!!! Actually, I gained fat. I’m that kinda hiyang talaga here. 
  • Internet access – STC. Sometimes it’s craaaappyyyy but it’s way better than our connection in PH.. kdrama pa more!!!!!! Fangirl pa more!! Stream pa more!!! *I always got a message that I consumed my data faster than expected or usual. Hehe oh! serry. 
  • The abaya dress, because I can wear my PJs all day and night when going OUT even I didn’t took a bath. Haha! But I don’t like wearing tarha/hijab!!! My face is very different if I wear those. 
  • I’m happy that I’ve met and gained sisters here, our kabayan, then Indian, and Saudis. They said, we can be friends to all but only trust a few.. that’s so true.. I’m thankful that I’ve met Bessy Cheryl and Ate Grace here. I will do cherish and keep in touch the most to them when I will fly back to PH soooon πŸ’–

~ Before I end this sharing, I also want to tell that right now, I’m experiencing God’s delays, coz supposed to be I must be on my home country before this month ends.. but still I haven’t booked my return ticket, my passport’s not with me, not applied yet for bank clearance needed for my exit visa. All in hold because of this holiday’s celebration. Wow lang, diba? But I MUST HOLD ON TO GOD, HAVE FAITH IN HIM THAT IN EVERY THING I AM EXPERIENCING AS OF THIS MOMENT HAS A PURPOSE!!!!! Kakapit lang me, at makakauwi rin naman tayo, self

Thanks for reading!

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

637

24 Jun

I am grateful I am alive and I am healthy. All for God’s glory πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

Today’s simple joys:

  • 10 hours of sleeeeeeep!!!!
  • Again, n a p for 2 hours ??? while listening to music. #myfavehobby 😴
  • Listened to music all day esp. Fight my Way’ Osts, Blackpink’s As if it’s your last(goshhhhhh!!! LSS FOR DAYSSS! It’s so good, I want to learn their choreo while singing this songggg!!!! Ughhhhh jebal ~), and watched other MVs and Vlogs on Youtube Channel of Ellie G, Hiam, Kris Lumagi, Laureen Muy and etc!
  • Pampered with tea tree mask and aloe vera soothing gel!! (Very relaxinggg! I hope they will help me minimize my pores…..and the smell of aloe vera plus the txture on my face ughhh πŸ’šπŸ’šπŸ’š)
  • Sweet for today: ice cream!!!
  • Snack for today: cucumber! ☺️

Gooodnight, loves! I’m so thankful that I’m back and I finally updated my blog.. so sorry for not updating this for more than a week because I’ve been busy(okay, lamest excuse I know). Now, the OC in me is happy to see my journal track calendar is filled!
Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

636

23 Jun

This coming Sunday will be a special day for Saudi people, and all Muslims, Eid celebration! So here, we prepared decorations in our ward! Thanks to Cheryl, Anusha, Ate Leona, and Neena for helping me. Success! So happy that I was able to draw and use my creativity to decorate again. As you see, I love rainbow colored theme. I only used my available scrap materials that I kept. I drew this mosque, not that perfect though because I just sketched fast then marked it with black pen. It’s like that I went on mornin duty because I went home together with Che. Creating art is simply my happy pill. I love creating. I love decorating. I love designing. I love arts as general. Even though it was creepy to walk alone early in the morning, literally feeling that I’m walking on a deserted island alone.. croo croo. This decorating stuff is not an obligation that I must do, hence I already resigned, yet, I volunteered to start decorating. They became motivated to put decorations when I arrived in our ward. Hihi. I’m really thankful to people who appreciates my simple efforts to make art. Just thank youuu!!! It’s fulfilling on the inside. My artistic soul is happy! 
Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

631

18 Jun

What to feel? 
Ambivalent.

Sad but grateful.

Excited but scared.

A bit of separation anxiety

But thankful for No last duty symdrome. Received six patients, 1 DAMA, then no admission, trans-out, trans-in, discharge, or absconded. 

Survived my 309 clinical duty experience in KMMCH, all thanks to my Heavenly Father up there!!!!! Nurse NJ, officially signing out..
Always be grateful 🌷

Love, 

Nj

630

18 Jun

It’s your special day, Papa and kuya. You both were not perfect human being, but I love you, two. You have flaws, negativity, freaking high ego and pride, bad habits, short temperance, impatience, close-mind and heart. Still, I love you both. I don’t want to have dramatic post for now because you already knew how much love, respect, and acceptance I have to both of you. I will just sincerely ask a short prayer to my Heavenly Father with regards on my Dad and brother.. 

Heavenly Father,

I earnestly pray that they may have healthy relationship towards each other and to You. I pray they grow spiritually together to praise and serve you. Use me to heal their broken pasts and issues, and use me to bring them closer to you. In Jesus Name, Amen.

I’m always grateful that I have a dad that could do and fix everything for me, 100%. For my brother too that could be both my happy and anger pill. Thank you! πŸ’“

Happy Father’s Day to all Dad in our blogosphere! πŸ‘¨πŸ½

Alwayd be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

628

16 Jun

Last morning duty – day 2/4!

I’m so thankful that Sis Anusha paired my schedule with Cheryl!! As I’ve told you on my old posts, or maybe I forgot to mention.. that in our ward, we were only two Filipina, the rest were Indian and Saudi. So, until my last day of duty, I’m with my favorite human!!!!! Yes, who’s happy? Both.

We had our long overdue date at Assir Mall. I’m so thankful that I’m with bes, I am very comfortable and happy when I’m with her. No dull moments huhu. Spontaneous date as always! We even went home at 0200H!!!! Can’t forget that we’re both eating our take-out Max food( fries x chicken) at the waiting area while waiting for our driver. We couldn’t resist the smell of newly-cooked fries and chicken, and we’re both hungry again even though we ate dinner when we arrived at the mall. Haha. So as always, she bought many stuff again compare to me that I only bought one bag that I really fell in love with even if it’s a bit costly!!! Here:


This bag will be a memorable one because my gyne family contributed to buy me a send away gift, since Cheryl was with me and she was assigned to buy me that gift, she just supported me to finally buy this bag!! πŸ’™ Thanks to my gyne family 😘
Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

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