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I woke up feeling lazy but today is the day that the Lord has made, It’s Valentine’s day, Ash Wednesday, and my Orientation day.

To make it short, I went out of my house and attended my orientation even though I’m 50 minutes late from the sched time (okaaaay don’t ever follow me being not on time huuu I value how precious is time is like GOLD but there were just days that I can’t reason out anymore just..)

Well, I’m really half-hearted again on working againnnnnn and I don’t know if accepting and signing this work contract will be a good decision.. I will just lift all my worries and uncertainties to God the Father. For He will always bring me to path/ journey of growth and learning.

Thank you po for allowing me to meet these people, Ate Che and Prince(ss). They have two admirable personalities that’s why we felt connected easily. #OrientationDay1πŸ™†β€β™€οΈ

I will cherish this moment, it’s the start for our new beginnings with Av*****. So, help us God.

Before I went home, I went to buy ate’s “pabili” of lipstick in Natasha even though I’m tired and a bit grumpy (my love and service for my ate had won). Least I expected that the second time I will have to go back from Farmers to Gateway to Farmers again.. I was able to extend a small help to Ate Eufie. I just met her there and she asked me if I’m already a member, then if not.. maybe I could let her have the points from the liptints that I will be buying, so my heart is so soft that I can’t decline?? Then, she gave me 20% discount all in all. I’m shook that I have to ask her if she earned profit from asking help from me.. she said yes and she just look so genuine.. I can’t be fooled but I calculated everything and I really got a discount from her. Thank You and God bless ate Eufie!

So I was having a fine day after all, right?

But lo and behold..

I never expect that tonight will be my worst valentine’s at home. My dad and my brother terribly fought again and I can’t do anything but to sobbbbbbbbbbb in the dark. I want to explode and be so mad with the universe but at that moment, I was reminded from this bible verse..

I cried and message Kam and Ate. I tried to comfort myself and other people most esp. my dad (I’m really worried coz anytime heart attack might happen and I DON’T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN). I prayed and I will always choose to love my household. I posted online (family picture + this verse and my gif I made this morning) if it’s the right thing to do but it’s just my last post for now, It’s the time of the year again for social media fasting.

I will continue posting here, so don’t worry. I will still share my day, my simple joys and my journey towards adulthood!!?? Haha! Anythinggg positive 🌻

My first training will start tomorrow!! Woohoo I ironed my old scrub suit uniform and washed my tupperware, it just felt strange to be back, but I’m happy that I chose to move forward again.

PS. I really wanted to give this to my brother today (egg pie~one of his fave) but sadly he refused and hurt me emotionally.. but I chose to forgive him, I still love him even though I hate the way he let his anger/hate grow to his heart that he unconsiously pushing the people who cares and loves him away. 😒 same with dad… huhu. I bought Caramel Pusong Mamon for him..

I am strong, my faith will strengthen me. GOD will heal my family. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Thank you for reading! πŸ’Ž

There’s always something to be grateful for 🌷 Happy Hearts Day!! ❀

Goodnight!

Love,

Nj

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Today’s simple joyssss:

  • Papa woke up earlier than me just to prepare our breakfast and my packed lunch *esp. marinated chicken (turbo)*
  • First time to attend the feast’s kick off fellowship β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘ what a welcoming family huhu All for Jesus!!! Got my first ID and shirt this year 😊 Karla and I were teammates in Green Battalion! Cue cheer.. “Sipag at talino ang  paniniwala, Green! Green! Battalion (4x); then I forgot the next song.. nandito na ang green battalion.. blue, yellow, red violet ay tutumba ngayon eyy..” the song and choreo were good! *marching, salute steps plus synchronization* Thanks to our teammates!! ++ I enjoyed playing games too and assisting with the design of our own banner (that we didn’t able to use) and our team’s costume. Overall, were 3rd place haha not bad at all!!
  • Got also hyped during our lunch break while sharing food with Karla and Sis Clarize, the music was changed into Kpop – CALL ME BABY, NOT TODAY, AS IF IT’S YOUR LAST, RED FLAVOR, SAVE ME. I gave 2 thumbs up to our DJ and the kpopper daughter of Bro. Mon πŸ˜€ of course I sang and just dance shyly on my sit πŸ˜†
  • When I got home, papa cleaned the house and cooked nilagang buto-buto for dinner! 
  • Video call to ate and mama. Actually, my mom is really extra cute again tonight and she asked me to take a photo of her and her smile was so awww adorable!!!
  • Watched #BTS4thMusterToday (first time via periscope live) and it gave me extra energy and happiness!! I stan too cute and kind angels most esp. to us, ARMYs. I had so much fun even if I don’t fully understand their conversations, their facial expressions and aura on stage were incredibly enough to finish watching it till the end!! I loved everything!!!! Thanks for all the k-diamonds and i-lovelies for sharing livestream links, photos, videos, and eng trans!! Huhu jinja gumowo πŸ’›
  • Got a chance to watch the wings tour final courtesy of my friend’s vlive account yey! Thanks, gracey πŸ˜—  #marathonsoonpls~
  • And again BTS choreo of (+ VCR) Pied Piper and Best of Me!!!!! Dark haired bangtan plus Jungkook’s shoulders, plus BTS ment plus all their aegyo plus vocals plus plus plus tomorrow is another dayy 🌞

    Always be grateful 🌷

    Love,

    Nj

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    Thank you Father God! I cried my heart out as I felt how sincere and deep my mom’s faith in you. She actively participated during praise and worship at the Feast. I saw how she openly lifted her arms and shed a tear too. Attending the Feast was her first time, she easily accepted my invitation to go with me, as compared to my dad who is really difficult to invite 😦

    After we celebrated mass and attended the Feast, my mom went home first because I stayed for my Awesome Kids service until 2pm. My heart is in its joyful state while serving with kids. We prayed, danced, colored, played, and ate together.Β  I am quite excited next Sunday for All Saint’s Day Event. hehe. I hope I can bring my niece and whole family next Sunday ❀

    At evening time, my brother drove us at our grandmother’s house. Together with mom, we bonded with Lola and before we left, we prayed the Rosary, mom as the lead. It took me a long time to pray the rosary again, but still I knew how to pray it, except for the mysteries that I’m not so much familiar anymore as compared before.

    I guess I’m not thatΒ  detailed enough to blog about my day, but I’m really happy today hehe. I’m not regretting any single time spent with my mom for now.

     

    Goodnight, universe!

    Always be grateful 🌷

     

    Love,

    Nj

     

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    Life’s full of temptation. Anybody can easily fall into a certain addiction because of this. However, without realizing and reflecting enough, we fall into sin not because of temptation, but with weak spiritual system.

    We, humans, go through different kinds of pain and sadness. Heartbreaking. Depressing. It’s unbearable at times, that’s why we, having these feels, tend to find instant solution to ease our sufferings.Β We tend to form an escape and rely to wrong choices that will only eventually make us more broken on the inside.

    I am not in the position to lecture what to do with these, but let’s just be kind to ourselves. Love ourselves to stand firm with God.

    I cry a lot because I sometimes feel hopeless as regard with my family issues but I still love them. During the session at the Feast, I can’t help myself not comparing the situation of my dad and my brother. Self-rejection to self-doubt to self-pity to self-destruction. For now, sorry I will not elaborate anymore.. I still can’t handle it. I hope it’s not too late for my family to be restored emotionally and spiritually. HUHU. I don’t know how to properly approach them with this matter but I pray that God will strengthen my faith that my family is worth-saving for!!!!! ~ My prayer since I’m in high school. Sigh.

    To sum up my night, I’m still pretending to be okay at home, even if my dad and brother were not really fine at all. While I was having my Sunday Service at Bluewave, I have no idea that they fought because of our car. ugh. Tomorrow is another day. I hope my brother is mature enough to say sorry and respect my dad. Please.

     

    Thank you God,Β  I know you’re always there for me and my household. I lift up all my pain in my heart. Thank you for this gift of life this week, though I sometimes feel like a failure, you’re there to comfort me and help me stand up all the time. I love you ❀

     

    No k-drama, k-pop music and social media until Saturday, self. I must start to focus on my review for IELTS. Hehe. push! See you on Sunday, BTS fam! Eat well and enjoy! Congrats on winning wooh DNA8thwin ~ daebak ~

     

    Goodnight, universe!

     

    Always be grateful ❀

     

     

    Love,

    Nj

     

     

     

    676 – Teacher πŸ“š

    Yes, you are poor but you can dream and work hard. You can get out from that cell that stopping you not to grow or change your life. You have to make a stand. It’s a hard battle and rough path. You gotta be strong. Have faith that your circle will support you in time, the least you expect it. You gotta experience being down before you taste real success. All of these down moments, these will all mold you up. Only way up, and forward to success. No matter how educated or successful you’ll be. Don’t forget your roots. Don’t ever belittle anybody. Nobody has the right to belittle any single human being in this universe. Stay humble. Live gratefully and with grace. Workhard to grow and to never stop learning in this life. I support Education, as equal as I give importance to our Health. 

    Learning. Reflections.

    I’ve watched today’s episode of #MMKPrideandJoy and Brigada. Both of them shared how essential Education is. I’m very grateful in my life that I’ve gave importance on my studies before anything else, like being in a relationship – for example. My parents really worked hard so I must pay what they deserve. It’s okay to get tired and tired while studying, but you must never ever give up your Education, dears. Education is a gold investment that your parents sacrificed everything for you to get one! 
    I got really teary-eyed, when the Father doesn’t support his Son’s dream to be a teacher at first, but then, the father knew the story of his son’s hardwork and how he was belittle by his Auntie (Father side). His father gone mad with his sister. His Father just became proud of his son. Oh, men were not so vocal, but they’re really love and protecting each other. Given fact that your family will always be your source of strength. Strength, to push you towards your goal coz its really fulfilling that your family support you. Huhu. Teacher Roy, Thank you for sharing your inspiring story! #MMKPrideandJoy πŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ‘ŒπŸΌ

    From Brigada, I was awakened again to my dream to teach kids passionately 😒 Miss Celine was a teacher in Laguna. She was a bookworm ever since. She has a daughter who got influenced too from Technologies but now grown to love books after Celine read a book everyday for her daughter. Celine got motivated to teach other kids during summer season, and since school has started, she has session every Saturday for them. “Kwentuhan sa Wawa.” As I remember the name of her project. She can alot her time, effort, and money just to teach and serve kids. She wanted all kids to learn how to read thru her simple movement. *very inspiring, Teacher Celine!! πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌ

    Two of the episodes I watched today were Teachers. Real talk: I’ve wanted to become a teacher too. Passionate teacher such as Miss Sabrina OngKiko. 

    To love and to serve the public. Every student deserves a good teacher. 

    β€” Sabrina Ongkiko 

    I’m very grateful today: I chose to alot time for my family and friends! Catch-up, done!

    Thank you Lord!!! πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–

    Goodnight! 

    Always be grateful 🌷

    Love,

    Nj

    668 – Sophia’s artwork 01

    When will a person change his behavior towards his daughter? He loves her as he told everyone in the crowd but no pure action of that so called love. 😫 If he’s mad, he’s annoyingly mad. He can’t give love and care selflessly. Haaaay, grow up pls. 

    I really missed you, Sophia, your presence made me simply happy. I admire how you initiate to draw and color in the middle of the night. I love you. I hope my brother will be a good father to you soon. So soon that he may be responsible enough to take care of you. You are our precious princess. 
    Sharing Sophia’s artworks! πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌ


    (From first row, I drew then she colored all of them. Then to second row, she drew and colored them all. Good job, Sophia!)



    Your parents must be proud and appreciate these, but they were busy with each other’s separate lives. 😞 Instead, let me keep these, I hope someday you look back to your drawings with me. I love you. ❀️



    Love,

    Nj

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    I am grateful I am alive and I am healthy. All for God’s glory! πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

    Today’s simple joys:

    • Watched Fight my Way’s Episode 11 & 12!! I got butterflies and lot of giggles from Dong Man and Ae Ra! But I got affected too much on Sul Hee’s emotional heartbreaking scene and to Father-Son moments of Dong Man!! Huhu! (I really wanted that someday my dad and my brother will have that deep conversation too someday, that my brother will respect my dad’s advices and lessons.. haaay) I really loved what his father adviced to Dong Man, “You can’t save your youth anyway. So, fight, take challenges even if you got beaten, live the life you wanted, okay?” I cried!!! Seeing your parents cry. 😭
    • I also loved this Dong Man!!! – “If growing up means your dreams fade, I’ll give up on growing up. There’s no need to pretend to be grown up for others” – real talk huhu
    • Me and my dad were in good terms already like nothing happened yesterday.. (story: I got irritated with him because he kept on calling and saying rants ughhh *my bad, sorry dad.. I just can’t tolerate many negativity yesterday!!!)
    • Everyday catch-up with my sister, *much longer time for VC today.
    • Went out at Aseer Mall with Ate Analyn, Grace, Angelica, and Cheryl. 
    • I bought one knitted cardigan, two branded watches for sale and two perfumes. Got me 267SR!!
    • Ate dinner with my flatmates, plus we shared table with Ate Leslie and Ate Aileen. Burgerl meal x chicken for dinner.
    • Watched ROS Song Triplets Ep6&7!!!! Cuties forever. The mud. The meals. The bday gift. The torch. πŸ’–
    • First time to try Fresh Burger’s Burger meal for 20SR, as my midnight snack. It was good esp. the bun and the fries’ sauce. #thisiswhyImFat

    Thank you Lord for today!!!!

    Goodnight!

    Always be grateful 🌷

    Love,

    Nj