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I woke up feeling lazy but today is the day that the Lord has made, It’s Valentine’s day, Ash Wednesday, and my Orientation day.

To make it short, I went out of my house and attended my orientation even though I’m 50 minutes late from the sched time (okaaaay don’t ever follow me being not on time huuu I value how precious is time is like GOLD but there were just days that I can’t reason out anymore just..)

Well, I’m really half-hearted again on working againnnnnn and I don’t know if accepting and signing this work contract will be a good decision.. I will just lift all my worries and uncertainties to God the Father. For He will always bring me to path/ journey of growth and learning.

Thank you po for allowing me to meet these people, Ate Che and Prince(ss). They have two admirable personalities that’s why we felt connected easily. #OrientationDay1πŸ™†β€β™€οΈ

I will cherish this moment, it’s the start for our new beginnings with Av*****. So, help us God.

Before I went home, I went to buy ate’s “pabili” of lipstick in Natasha even though I’m tired and a bit grumpy (my love and service for my ate had won). Least I expected that the second time I will have to go back from Farmers to Gateway to Farmers again.. I was able to extend a small help to Ate Eufie. I just met her there and she asked me if I’m already a member, then if not.. maybe I could let her have the points from the liptints that I will be buying, so my heart is so soft that I can’t decline?? Then, she gave me 20% discount all in all. I’m shook that I have to ask her if she earned profit from asking help from me.. she said yes and she just look so genuine.. I can’t be fooled but I calculated everything and I really got a discount from her. Thank You and God bless ate Eufie!

So I was having a fine day after all, right?

But lo and behold..

I never expect that tonight will be my worst valentine’s at home. My dad and my brother terribly fought again and I can’t do anything but to sobbbbbbbbbbb in the dark. I want to explode and be so mad with the universe but at that moment, I was reminded from this bible verse..

I cried and message Kam and Ate. I tried to comfort myself and other people most esp. my dad (I’m really worried coz anytime heart attack might happen and I DON’T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN). I prayed and I will always choose to love my household. I posted online (family picture + this verse and my gif I made this morning) if it’s the right thing to do but it’s just my last post for now, It’s the time of the year again for social media fasting.

I will continue posting here, so don’t worry. I will still share my day, my simple joys and my journey towards adulthood!!?? Haha! Anythinggg positive 🌻

My first training will start tomorrow!! Woohoo I ironed my old scrub suit uniform and washed my tupperware, it just felt strange to be back, but I’m happy that I chose to move forward again.

PS. I really wanted to give this to my brother today (egg pie~one of his fave) but sadly he refused and hurt me emotionally.. but I chose to forgive him, I still love him even though I hate the way he let his anger/hate grow to his heart that he unconsiously pushing the people who cares and loves him away. 😒 same with dad… huhu. I bought Caramel Pusong Mamon for him..

I am strong, my faith will strengthen me. GOD will heal my family. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Thank you for reading! πŸ’Ž

There’s always something to be grateful for 🌷 Happy Hearts Day!! ❀

Goodnight!

Love,

Nj

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Today’s simple joys:

  • Attended the feast and praised God for I know He is in everywhere for He is in control of everything. Felt my soul so fueled again.
  • Served at awesome kids, second time this year. It’s challenging to teach kids but with the grace of God, Karla and I were able to serve with a joyful heart.
  • This is it, balance paid for Love life retreat on February!!
  • Played left for dead2 with ate.

Always be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

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Today’s simple joys:

  • Although I’m really demotivated and confused between Aventus, Intellicare and Equicom company fornmy scheduled job interview today, God had lead my feet to go to Aventus. I came late, but still I got hired. HUHU. Thank You Lord. 😒
  • I felt glad that I never get lost in Makati anymore. I’m okay even when I’m alone, I got all my time for myself.
  • I stopped by at Robinson’s galleria and went to National bookstore!! Hihi I bought new ballpens and short bond papers.
  • Bought ilocos empanada for papa as pasalubong.
  • Safe and smooth ride marikina to ayala then ayala to ortigas to marikina.
  • Video call with Ate, Mama, and cheryl.
  • Slept early!! 😊

Alwayd be grateful 🌷

Love,

Nj

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Today’s simple joyssss:

  • Papa woke up earlier than me just to prepare our breakfast and my packed lunch *esp. marinated chicken (turbo)*
  • First time to attend the feast’s kick off fellowship β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘ what a welcoming family huhu All for Jesus!!! Got my first ID and shirt this year 😊 Karla and I were teammates in Green Battalion! Cue cheer.. “Sipag at talino ang  paniniwala, Green! Green! Battalion (4x); then I forgot the next song.. nandito na ang green battalion.. blue, yellow, red violet ay tutumba ngayon eyy..” the song and choreo were good! *marching, salute steps plus synchronization* Thanks to our teammates!! ++ I enjoyed playing games too and assisting with the design of our own banner (that we didn’t able to use) and our team’s costume. Overall, were 3rd place haha not bad at all!!
  • Got also hyped during our lunch break while sharing food with Karla and Sis Clarize, the music was changed into Kpop – CALL ME BABY, NOT TODAY, AS IF IT’S YOUR LAST, RED FLAVOR, SAVE ME. I gave 2 thumbs up to our DJ and the kpopper daughter of Bro. Mon πŸ˜€ of course I sang and just dance shyly on my sit πŸ˜†
  • When I got home, papa cleaned the house and cooked nilagang buto-buto for dinner! 
  • Video call to ate and mama. Actually, my mom is really extra cute again tonight and she asked me to take a photo of her and her smile was so awww adorable!!!
  • Watched #BTS4thMusterToday (first time via periscope live) and it gave me extra energy and happiness!! I stan too cute and kind angels most esp. to us, ARMYs. I had so much fun even if I don’t fully understand their conversations, their facial expressions and aura on stage were incredibly enough to finish watching it till the end!! I loved everything!!!! Thanks for all the k-diamonds and i-lovelies for sharing livestream links, photos, videos, and eng trans!! Huhu jinja gumowo πŸ’›
  • Got a chance to watch the wings tour final courtesy of my friend’s vlive account yey! Thanks, gracey πŸ˜—  #marathonsoonpls~
  • And again BTS choreo of (+ VCR) Pied Piper and Best of Me!!!!! Dark haired bangtan plus Jungkook’s shoulders, plus BTS ment plus all their aegyo plus vocals plus plus plus tomorrow is another dayy 🌞

    Always be grateful 🌷

    Love,

    Nj

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    Today’s simple joys:

    • Accomplished Mission#1: Celebrate your wins. I was so surprised that I was able to list more than five big wins last 2017.. so far my toughest year because I have no job but in turns out, my creative self has been revived. I’m grateful that I finished my work contract peacefully and I was able to follow my passion for arts, strengthen my faith with God through celebrating mass and serving at the Feast, deepen my relationship with my family and friends, and despite having de quervain syndrome, I’m still healthy to do boxing, dancing, running and more. Thank you, Lord! β™‘ All glory to you!
    • Met my accountability team on Facebook and Instagram. I hesitated at first because I’m shy but I overcome it, so I initiated our group chat, named it Braver Team 52, changed our chat group color to purple, and placed a picture from our mission today. Another step out of my comfort zone, self.. I will give you a gentle pat on the back.
    • Sent my sincerest thanks to those people beyond my little/big wins last year (You know who you are).
    • Being simply appreciated.
    • Video call with Janet and Janelle.
    • Fixed our closet today.
    • Dad accompanied me at LTO’s office.
    • Read a chapter of Girl Online.
    • Ms. Arriane greeted me again even though I came late from her live chat on Facebook.
    • Did my UA IPL session alone at home.
    • Posted BTS Love Yourself poster on my wall with my dad and sister’s permission hihi!

    (Mission 1: grateful for my 2017′ biggest win(s)Β 

    (Β from @refinery29)
    There’s always something to be grateful for!!! 🌷
    Goodnight! πŸ˜‰
    Love,

    Nj

    804 – hello, 2018!

    Happy New Year, friends! ✨
    “Let Go and Let God”
    I surrender my 365 days to Him and I will not pray to have a best year because I want to look forward every year in the future despite with the downsides of life. So let’s start the year by being grateful!
    I’m here to continue my simple joys project rollin’

    Today’s simple joys:

    • Vlogged 5-minute korean makeup look challenge and marshmallow challenge with my sister at 1 o’clock in the morning
    • Listened to Optimal Health’s Podcast
    • Updated my 2017 journal
    • Saw BTSxRockinEve dance videos and photos!!
    • Visited Nanay Itchay β™‘
    • Joined thepurposefulcreative giveaway#1 category (1st timer hihi)
    • Midnight snack treat to my sister 

    Always be grateful 🌷

    Love, 

    Nj

    802 – End of 2 0 1 7 ~

    Hi, my friend! I’m not 100% okay right now but I still want to create a meaningful post with my 2017 reflections. All of us have our own ups and downs this year, some decided to keep on having a good fight, while others had ended their dark life, and it’s a heart-wrenching fact. I don’t know if I can organize my thoughts here, well just bear with me.

    Let’s start.

    Honestly, I’ve been confused and undecided throughout 2017 but still I pushed myself to not renew my work contract in Saudi Arabia and packed all my things back to the Philippines due to infinite reasons. I’m not so sure with my future even if I have backup plans on my mind, plans A to Z. Oh my, quarter-life crisis, self, this is just the beginning. However, I started to realize that everything, everything is in God’s timetable. My unemployed self  for almost six months is still a blessing in disguise, most esp. until my grandmother’s last breath, I was able to serve and stay by her side. Oh I miss you lola Belen.. I’m so sorry for blaming people and hurting myself even more. I will continue to help myself to move on and to forgive. You will always have a special space in my heart.

    On the latter part, this year was full of  learning and self-love. I was able to overcome my laziness, doubts and depressed phase. Even though I didn’t travel much; didn’t received any awards or attended to many parties, events, and concerts; didn’t get my target scores in IELTS’ Speaking and Writing exam; didn’t get a job after my resignation; didn’t get a boyfriend (haha lol standards); didn’t helped my family much this year, all in all – I didn’t excelled much compare to others, (I hate comparing stuff and having trust issues esp. to people but why I kept on doing this to myself.), I have to accept these and must forgive my weak self. As I look back, I want to give myself a gentle pat on the back for doing just fine amidst of these matter. I’m not crying anymore because it’s useless to cry over a spilled milk, instead I just need to fill it up again. I need to be tougher and kinder to myself and continue what I had begun, my life goals and the Feast fellowship. I’m glad to find my creative self again this year and I’m grateful to join and serve at the Feast. So from all the learning and motivation I got from my sister, parents, friends (Sym, Iya, Janet, Grace, Cheryl, Janelle, Marissa, Owdy and Karla), Bro. Bo Sanchez, preachers, IELTS teachers, youtube vloggers (Jordan Clark, Kris Lumagui, AC, and Laureen Uy) and multi-talented artists (BTS, Abbey Sy, Arianne Serafico), I’m immensely in debt with all of you forever! ❀

    Before I sum it up, I also want to thank each and every one of you who visited and followed my blog for six years!!!! It’s never easy to blog everyday, but at least I tried for several months! Although I’m not so consistent (huhu) I failed to post daily for the last two months of 2017, but I didn’t fail you today.

    Life will always have a significant blend of happiness and sadness. It can be overwhelming and unbearable. I can’t guarantee if I can live long, only God knows. however I will always choose to fight my inner battles and appreciate bit by bit all the “simple joys” that makes me ultimately happy every day.

     

    Bye, 2017!

    Treat yourself and choose to love yourself more ❀

     

    HAPPY NEW YEAR, FRIENDS! To more simple joys and positive vibes in my gigantic universe ~

     

    Always be grateful πŸŒ·

     

    Love,

    Nj